Let Your Healing Rain Come Down!

June 12, 2013 Today felt like a different kind of Wednesday ... the sun was shining brighter, I was excited to meet up with a friend whom I had not seen in nearly a year, I had plans to get my hair done, and little did I know that I would also decide to attend the Healing Rain Prayer Service at Church that evening. I had never been able to attend one of the Healing Rain services because I had night class during previous school semesters, I was filling in at work, I was fighting with migraines or grave stomach pain, or SOMETHING was in the way of making this happen. However, tonight it was perfect. Although I had been battling a slight migraine, God kept it at bay and I was able to attend; eagerly!

As I  met my friend at Lifegate before the service began, I was overcome with excitement, openness, and a willingness to see what God had in store for the evening. Since coming to know Jesus nearly three years ago, I just want to keep learning and growing in His word, presence, and love! Oh what an amazing feeling it is! As we sat down and listened to the soothing music being played, we joined in and worshipped together; praising God for being the amazing Heavenly Father that He is; in both trials and joyous times!

 

The main focus of tonight was releasing people from feelings of depression, abandonment, and worthlessness! What is even cooler, is that my friend whom I was with had written those exact words down earlier in the day ... WOW! Really GOD! Those are things that I have struggled with in my life! And although I have been going through healing and have grown tremendously, there are still those lies that creep into the back of my mind that would love for me to believe that I am "not worth it," that I am "unlovable," or that God's love is "unconditional" or that somehow, I am a disappointment to him because that was how I felt for much of my life growing up with my own parents and people around me. But ... the truth of who God is much LOUDER than the voice of the enemy, today. It never used to be that way but I am so thankful that it is now! God loves me! I AM His BELOVED! I am a Child of God; Chosen BY GOD! I am a daughter of the highest! I am precious in His eyes. I am not perfect by worldly standards (thank goodness) but I was made perfect in the image of GOD! And GOD DOES NOT MAKE MISTAKES! Do you hear that?! That means YOU TOO! I am a delight to the LORD! I am not perfect, but I am forgiven! I am not my past. I am  not any of the labels that I once believed: Loser, worthless, anorexic, depressed, disappointment, burden, failure, ugly, dumb, embarrassment, etc etc. I am none of those things! I am those things that I listed above which are worth mentioning again: Child of God, Beloved Daughter of God, precious, worthy, chosen, perfect in His image, and forgiven! Other words that I now choose to describe myself are these: delight, warrior, daughter redeemed, saved, inspiration, courageous, leader, strong, compassionate, and many more. My newest as of last night is, "Daughter of Delight."

Now, let me explain where the "Daughter of Delight" came from. As I was sitting there waiting to go up and be prayed for and just sitting back soaking everything up; watching others be healed, others speaking in tongues, and people being prophesied over ... the lead pastor came up to me and said, "I know you did not ask for this, but God has a gift to give you. Will you hold out your hands?" Of course, I smiled and placed my hands with palms facing the Heavens. "The Lord wants to give you the gift of Joy; a kind of joy that no one can pluck away from you; ever." Wow, really? He wants to give me this? What an honor! As if that was not cool enough, the pastor continued ... "God also wants you to know that you are a "Daughter of Delight to Him." My heart filled with joy ... yes ... with joy ... I, Kaylin Ohler, am a Daughter of Delight to the Lord, our God.

There have been so many times in my life that I allowed the labels that the enemy has placed on me to fill my spirit and heart ... leading me into darkness. There are so many times that I (and you I am sure) have (or maybe still do) let society label you as NOT GOOD ENOUGH, not pretty enough, not thin enough, not muscular enough, etc etc etc. Over the last three years, it has taken a lot of work, but I am finally to the point where I just simply do not care what society thinks about me. What I care about is honoring God and WHO He has made me to be. What I care about is what keeps me healing, what keeps me alive, and what honors me. God has the final say ... His word is what matters. His word holds the ultimate truth and holds life ... THAT is the truth!

 

Now, let us continue on with the Healing Rain evening. I decided that it was my turn to go up and seek prayer from some things that have been a battle for me this year; physically. Through recovery, God has brought so much healing to my heart, spirit, mind, and even my body. My body is going to need to continue the healing process of years to come, as I believe it will only strengthen my relationship with God, but also because of the decade+ of abuse that I did. I talked to the two women who would be praying over me about the grave and crippling migraines that I face every month and especially lately, the pre-ovarian failure, and the intestinal issues that I still continue to battle with (but that God has begun to heal TREMENDOUSLY might I say ... PRAISE JESUS)!

As the two women asked what I would like God to do, I told them ... I began praying over myself, essentially ... then they took over ... I felt the Holy Spirit come into my body ... goose bumps covered the surface of my skin (so much for shaving ... just kidding), and I knew that HE was EVER PRESENT. I knew God wanted me to know that I was not alone, that He hasn't and never would abandon me but to keep calling out for Him, to keep TRUSTING Him, and to keep asking and seeking; the healing is happening and IS coming. HOPE. HOPE. HOPE. There is NO hopeless situation in the name of JESUS! Do you hear that? Are you reading this?

One of the women began speaking in tongues and it was so amazing because I KNEW God was filling her with His spirit. She asked me if people or doctors have told me about something that may never happen ... (mind you, I did not reveal anything to them) ... I said yes ... that it was a possibility that I would never have kids. She said that is what she thought and God wanted me to know that that was GONE! God is good, isn't he? Now, I just need to find a guy, right? God ... I am waiting!!! Hah ... humor, got to love it!!  The last few things that the women said as they were thanking God for this "precious child" was that they wanted me to know that I was one of "God's favorites ..." What? How could this be? I could not even question it for long because I just love Jesus and our Heavenly Father so much that I trust in Him, His Word, and I want Him to lead me wherever He wants me to go. I want His thoughts to be my thoughts, His desires to be my desires and His will to be my will.

The night was amazing; I was grounded again in WHO God says that I am. I was reminded again that there is light in the darkness and there is no place to dark where we cannot be reached. There is no medical issue that is too big for God; there is no addiction that is too complex for  Him; there is nothing that is TOO GREAT for GOD to overcome and to lay His healing and loving hands upon! God wants to know you, God wants a relationship with you and I. God wants us (yes, you) to know that you are His beloved!!!! Have HOPE ... For you are loved and precious beyond words! Let His loving promises, truth, and healing rain upon you today ... and every day. Blessings and love!!